I gave but wanted....

She became like a well
A place where I merely
Threw my gifts, affection, words in
Hoping that I might somehow
Receive something in return,

And I know that thinking sounds greedy
Shows that my kindness does in fact
Have strings attached
But that's not it at all,
I just wanted a token in return
Some small gesture that she did indeed
Feel the same way

I didn't expect large words of love
Nor opulent rings
Just a small trinket
A sign that she reciprocated,

But humans are edgy creatures
Always looking over their shoulders
And terrified at the sight of their insecurities
Keeping a steady pace with them.

I want to apologize for my uncertainty
Since until now I've been allowing myself
To believe that if I gazed down into her well
Long enough I would find a tiny gift in return
But I cannot,
I am uncertain and insecure
Easily poisoned by others words
Not unlike many others if not all people

But I should not hope for
What she is not willing to give
And so I settle once again at her ledge
Tamed enough to wait for awhile yet